Rythyms

I miss the community we were connected to in cincinnati. it's funny because we really weren't very connected. people didn't know our names, we weren't part of a small group, we didn't have friends there unless we happened to bump into someone we already knew. but still it felt like home. it felt peaceful and comfortable. isn't that what the kingdom is supposed to feel like? shouldn't it feel similar and home-like? without fail, every service was hand-crafted for me. down to the minute details, it was about me and my inside-life. but it was also about matthew, individually. and every other person in the room. it was such a beautiful thing. we aren't finding anything remotely similar up here, which is really sad. yes, i understand that it is a unique church with unique leadership but that feeling of comradere should be accessible elsewhere. it's very frustrating to not be able to find it. the Holy Spirit is accessible anywhere. it's actually even promised that He shows up where two or more are gathered in His Name. so why does it seem so unattainable up here? still no answer. though i still have a sneaking suspicion that it's a learning process for matthew and me to figure it out on our own. it's far too easy to depend on someone else's time with God as a prop for our own spiritual life. it's up to us to decide on our path as a family and as individuals, and to put the necessary rythyms in place to achieve those goals. we have to make ourselves accessible to what He has for us so that we're able to receive what He has for us. it's too easy to miss the "good stuff" because so frequently it's hidden just behind the "bad stuff".